Time…

Before I had kids, I thought I understood the passage of time.  I would often hear phrases like “where did the time go?” or “at the blink of an eye, they will be grown”. I would hear it, and nod my head in agreement, as if I had a clue as to the concept of time with kids.  Wow…I did not, at all, have a clue!  It is amazing to me how quickly my three littles are growing…and they each seem to grow quicker than the one before.  I feel like my little Sam has been 3 for forever…he has ALWAYS been three.  The phrases that come out of my sweet Nathan’s mouth are so adult…things that I wouldn’t think a 6 year old would know, much less understand.  And then there is my Mia…at 13 months, she is beyond anything age appropriate.  It is astonishing…and frightening…and saddening…and humbling.  I find myself desperate to hold on to every single moment, minute, step that my children make.  I feel a desperate need to memorized every breath of every day.  It is going so fast, that I feel desperate to somehow bottle their sweet smiles and soft touch or I will forget it all.  There is so much going on all the time, so much information being shared, so many thoughts, fears, wants, and needs happening all at the same time that the days are zooming by, and before I know it, it is October and another year is mere blinks away.  What if I forget?  I don’t want to forget…anything.